Not PTSD…
During my psychologist appointment the other day the dr concluded that I do not suffer ptsd. Simply because I do not look over my shoulder in fear, I don’t freak out over loud noises and I don’t have dreams that cause me to feel like I’m back in the bad situation.
My “problem ” is worthlessness, low self confidence and the need to seek approval from people. Stemming from childhood.
We are going to work on building up my confidence and treating myself better. Not being afraid of making decisions for myself… I tend to overthink even the smallest things and how it is going to affect someone else( my bf, my children, my friends, my bosses etc) . I don’t want to be a disappointment which means often I miss out on things that may be good for me.
I want nothing more than to be a confident, respected and trusted woman.
E.
I am Maleena Eve 
Sounds like a healthy goal!
Heya – I nominated you for The Versatile Blogger Award & you’ve instantly won it, please see my link: https://discoveringyourhappiness.com/2017/05/08/i-won-the-versatile-blogger-award/ – thanks for providing such an amazing blog, keep up the hard work 🙂
I also suffer from low self esteem, I lack confidence and feel like I am constantly worried about what others think about me. I’m always in my head. It is hard to feel like your really truly enjoying life when you can’t get out of your head long enough to work out what you enjoy. It is even harder when all people see if a nicely dressed woman that appears to be happy and confident. xx keep blogging. A.