I need to stand up for myself & notice when I’m being disrespected…

My choices in life have led me to allow others to disrespect me. I’ve allowed it and just stopped noticing when it is happening. So then I don’t stop it from happening and it just keeps continuing. How did I find out I was being disrespected? I told my man some things that were said …

Schema-therapy Part 2

I’m just going to be completely honest and tell you I’m feeling extremely emotional and scared about my upcoming session this afternoon. Last week I was left feeling drained after my first session of schema-therapy and rescripting (link in previous post).  During the session I closed my eyes and found my safe place first, then …

When I realised something needed to change…

After I left my husband, I was contacted by a guy I went to high school with 20 years ago. He looked ok on his fb profile and was a single father. I agreed to meet him for coffee. I remember being nervous and then thinking he was a little strange (stupidly I put it …

Stubbornness and ignoring the signs…

“Flash those bright neon flickering signs at me and I still won’t see them “ Or should I say I chose to ignore them? I am very good at seeing and hearing things I want to see and hear. Sometimes it’s good out in public, because I miss the really bad things I prefer not …

Looking back is a curse…

And so the story continues… I met a lovely kind young man when I went to a club with my friends one night. I can see where I ruined not only my life but a very good mans life too. Looking back is a curse. I can clearly see now that I chose him because …

Should I make the long story shorter?

I’ve been struggling with sharing my past , not from shame but I feel like it could turn into a very long drawn out story of my life. But I also feel like there needs to be an explanation of how I got here. E.

Not thinking for yourself…the pain it can cause

I wish I knew this years ago!!! I always did what was “right” by everyone else’s standards. Ever heard of WWJD? What Would Jesus Do… well it was more like “how can I do this and make my parents/church happy and keep them off my back?” I just wanted to live and do what other …

Starting from the beginning… part two

I guess I became scared and insecure about whether people would still love me if they knew the truth … Doing what was “right” I was never one of those children who pushed the boundaries very far. The boundaries I pushed were like watching tv instead of doing my chores or homework, going to the …

Starting from the beginning …part one

This one is going to take a while… Well unlike The Eve of Creation, I started life like everyone else, being born into a loving family. I was the first child for a religious couple in the late 70’s. A father who was raised by two very dysfunctional parents and a mother raised by very …