Tag: anxiety

I’m a little lost at the moment…

I feel lonely… I realise my man is right when he says I can’t be with myself for long. Last night I took my man and his son to the airport, to start their epic adventure. As soon as I got home and went to bed I noticed how empty the bed was. I started …

Week 3 goals…

It’s been over a week since I’ve been to the gym but I’m back on track 😊. E.

Today…

I’ve been slack at posting this week gone by.  I went to Bali for work and took bf with me, it started off amazing, then went sour for a tiny bit. After some communication we were back on the wonderful and amazing track of love ❤️.  I’ve been on a high ever since. So happy.  …

Week 2 C25K goals…

Today felt a lot easier than yesterday… I’m feeling great! E.

I feel like I’ve lost myself…

“I want the old you back, you’ve changed in the past 6 weeks “ My bf said this last night and I asked him to explain and he just said he’d noticed a change in me.  I totally agree with him… at first I thought he wanted the girl who cried all of the time, which …

The day after…

The day after my bf and I had a discussion about him needing time to find his purpose in life I had my first visit to the psychologist. And I spent every minute of my 50 minute appointment talking. I’m sure I opened her eyes to a full on crazy life (probably not… I’m sure …

Last night…

I hate how you can go from feeling good to feeling not so good in a matter of hours. Last night, before cooking dinner, I sat with my man and contemplated asking him to come to a family dinner for a 60th. I went over how I would ask him and went over and over …

Stubbornness and ignoring the signs…

“Flash those bright neon flickering signs at me and I still won’t see them “ Or should I say I chose to ignore them? I am very good at seeing and hearing things I want to see and hear. Sometimes it’s good out in public, because I miss the really bad things I prefer not …

Today…

Today I feel blah… I should have written yesterday.  Yesterday, I went to the hairdresser for the first time in over a year. I came out feeling fantastic, a little lighter in the purse 😉 but non the less fantastic and pretty. I was happy and couldn’t wait to show my new hair to my …

Looking back is a curse…

And so the story continues… I met a lovely kind young man when I went to a club with my friends one night. I can see where I ruined not only my life but a very good mans life too. Looking back is a curse. I can clearly see now that I chose him because …