Tag: PTSD

Not PTSD…

During my psychologist appointment the other day the dr concluded that I do not suffer ptsd. Simply because I do not look over my shoulder in fear, I don’t freak out over loud noises and I don’t have dreams that cause me to feel like I’m back in the bad situation. My “problem ” is …

I feel like I’ve lost myself…

“I want the old you back, you’ve changed in the past 6 weeks “ My bf said this last night and I asked him to explain and he just said he’d noticed a change in me.  I totally agree with him… at first I thought he wanted the girl who cried all of the time, which …

Today…

I’m having a very low day. My partner is going through what I would call a midlife crisis. He hates that he is causing me to feel like I’m the problem. I love him for that. But he would like me to stay at my place until he knows what he can do with his …

Last night…

I hate how you can go from feeling good to feeling not so good in a matter of hours. Last night, before cooking dinner, I sat with my man and contemplated asking him to come to a family dinner for a 60th. I went over how I would ask him and went over and over …

Patience is a virtue…especially when you are the patient 

I’ve been to the gym , while my 3 boys went hiking. Now I’m waiting at the doctors surgery…again. So I decided to do this post :). I am very impatient when waiting for my loved ones to do what I’ve asked or what they’ve said they would do. If it has something to do …

Stubbornness and ignoring the signs…

“Flash those bright neon flickering signs at me and I still won’t see them “ Or should I say I chose to ignore them? I am very good at seeing and hearing things I want to see and hear. Sometimes it’s good out in public, because I miss the really bad things I prefer not …

Today…

Today I feel blah… I should have written yesterday.  Yesterday, I went to the hairdresser for the first time in over a year. I came out feeling fantastic, a little lighter in the purse 😉 but non the less fantastic and pretty. I was happy and couldn’t wait to show my new hair to my …

Not thinking for yourself…the pain it can cause

I wish I knew this years ago!!! I always did what was “right” by everyone else’s standards. Ever heard of WWJD? What Would Jesus Do… well it was more like “how can I do this and make my parents/church happy and keep them off my back?” I just wanted to live and do what other …

Today…

This is where I share what is currently happening in my journey to discovering who Ms Eve is. While still sharing how I got here in much lengthier posts. Today I visited my doctor yet again to find out why I am always tired (I’ve been tired for 3 1/2 years). We’ve ruled out pernicious …

Starting from the beginning …part one

This one is going to take a while… Well unlike The Eve of Creation, I started life like everyone else, being born into a loving family. I was the first child for a religious couple in the late 70’s. A father who was raised by two very dysfunctional parents and a mother raised by very …